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[08 Dec 2006|06:16am] [ mood | flirty ] Okay so I'm back everyone. =) Yippie! I went from 135 pounds to 122 pounds! I'm so proud of myself! I might a have a new love in my life. Meet him at Headquarters when I was getting my county ID issued. =) Okay the end for today. He he he. I'm tired and need some sleep before I go to work today. post comment

[03 Apr 2006|12:26am] [ mood | bouncy ] Hey everyone. I hope everyone is doing well! Today I start my new diet and work out. 200 sit-ups and push-ups a day. 1 hour straight of ddr extreme. and a jog on my usual course 2x a day. Wish me luck! My diet will still consist of one meal a day, but I'm adding more water to it. Toodles! Anyone have aim and wanna talk? Add me. piggiehandcuffs post comment

[01 Mar 2006|06:20pm] [ mood | annoyed ] Ok my life officially sucks....... I'm so bored at home. My mom made this new rule that I can't bathe or shower when my parents are home because I'm home 24/7 basically. Sucks doesn't it? I can't even make a phone call or go to the bathroom anymore. I hate CBS4 with a passion right now. Fucking bullshit news is what it is. Yea so I'm getting a headache from listening to all my mom's bullshit ramblings today. I want to go back to bed or take a nice hot bath and relax... But since I'm not allowed to take a bath, forget it, and my dad is cutting tiles beside my room......So I have nothing to do basically. Ahhh I hate this.........I want to go out to a club or something....But I'm going for a walk to buy a magazine or something so toodles.................... post comment

[24 Feb 2006|12:10am] [ mood | sad ] [ music | temperature - Sean Paul ] Ok so I haven't updated in a while...Yes I got my drivers license, but it's a learners permit for now. My mom still won't let me drive. She only let me get my license for Florida ID. I think thats all I got to say for now.... Sorry my mind went blank..... Oh Here's some info on me..Ha ha ha. Enjoy... I have only had one orgasm ever in my life, and it happened over a year ago. I have only had sex once from beginning to end. That also happened over a year ago. I have been with 5 men in my life. Heh whatever. Yeah and on christmas eve this guy only lasted 5 minutes... Major turn off for me I'm scared of having sex now....... I want to do it again, but I can't. I'm scared something messed up will happen again. Fucked up aren't I? 4 comments|post comment

[02 Feb 2006|04:07am] [ music | blaque - I'm good ] Today was an ok day........Had about 1/2 a cup of pasta, and water before going to work. I've been awake all night doing school work, and now I'm planning my next work out for Thursday after work. Might do some DDR in the morning, but in the gym, I plan on doing 200 sit-ups to get rid of my love handles and stomach fat, and I want to run for 20 mins on the tredmile. Anyone have any other good exercises? I've been keeping on my fast. I'm on day 3 technically...Woo-hoo! Go me. I am finally doing something right. He he he. Tomorrows meal is 2 granola bars and 2 bottles of water (260cals). Here's some Inspiration (sp?) post comment

[01 Feb 2006|01:12am] [ mood | sleepy ] Today I ate 2 granola bars... 130cals each. 2 bottles of water, and a tiny itty bitty piece of cake. A cop retired from my station today and I had allready gotten into trouble for not eating on my meal break. I was sitting in Pollo Tropical today with 2 other officers. Someone (my partner) had to open their mouth and say that I eat one meal a day. They looked at me weird. Oh well. I managed to burn off everything I ate today on a tredmile in the gym. I also worked out my abs. This damned fat won't go away! I hate it so much. I love my collar bones. It's nice to be able to see them again. post comment

Day 1 [29 Jan 2006|11:09pm] [ mood | hungry ] [ music | Paper bag - Fiona Apple ] After being force fed 2 scoops of ice cream, a handful of pasta, and a tiny piece of cake again I feel fat. I ate nothing at all this morning which was a good achievement for me. I had 2 diets cokes, 1 regular coke and a snowcone. So all in all I think I had about 300cals today or so. I'm going to work it off though in a few with DDR. I hav given up on the easy going anorexia thing I was doing. Now I'm into it hardcore. I need to loose this stubborn fat. I want to fit into a little kids size 14 again. I'm looking at this picture from 2000 when I weighed about 110 pounds. Gosh, I'd kill to look like that again. I guess I'm off to a good start though. Right now I'm wearing a little kids size medium shirt. This morning I managed to skip breakfast by just smelling my coffee. I didn't even drink it. For some reason, the smell of coffee supresses my appetite, just like smoking and water. Everytime I get hungry or my stomach rumbles, I try to drink water, and if I don't have any water around me, I snap this elastic I have around my wrist. The pain from the elastic makes me forget that I was hungry. This morning while on my detail on the beach, I replaced my thoughts of food with how much I hate sand with a passion. Its so easy to trick your mind into not being hungry. The only thing that sucks is that grumbbly tummy that won't shut up. I gotta go to publix tomorrow.... I'm starting a new snack food diet. Cucumbers (very very low cal), celery (mostly made up of water), Carrots (the safest vegtable for anorexics), and pickles (vinegar supresses appetite, and they have virtually no cals). Oh man today when I got out of bed, I thought I was going to fall down. I stood up from my bed, and got really dizzy, I almost fell into my wall trying to get to my door. I hate that feeling. The more worse I know my body is, the more I am happy because I know I am loosing weight, but when I go weigh myself it's like I'm always the same weight. 128lbs. Did you know that that baby teething gel that numbs teeth also numbs your taste buds? Put some on your tounge, and eat the foods you hate the taste of. I use that gel to drink diet coke. I hate the taste, it makes me wanna puke, but with this numbing gel, I can drink it when I need caffine. Lately I've been wanting to puke up everything, but thats grose as fuck, so I try to keep it in. I haven't puked since my Jagermister shots I took back in July. Ok well off to my wokring out.......I need to burn 300cals a day on my DDR. My legs are killing me from it, but it's such a good work out. I haven't sweat soo much from a work out ever in my life. Since I know that I won't be able to sleep for the next 24 hours due to snoring from my dad and the package I'm expecting in the daytime from UPS (new cell phone). Lately I've been passing out to have a good nights sleep, cause I just can't sleep anymore. I've also been having many boughts of depression like quick panic attacks. If something isn't right I have OCD. Everything has to be perfect....Except for my room. Everything else is neat, tidy, and perfect. This morning I flipped out because there was nothing I could clean my tub with. I can see the soap scum everytime I take a bath, and if I can't clean it, it drives me nuts. My purse went from everything in it, like make-up, make-up brushes, mirrors, pens, wallet, camera, and etc.....to just keys, camera, wallet, and lipstick. It's so weird. Oh and lately I've been wearing pink. The color I hate wearing the most. Anyways I gotta get going I can't sit here any longer. I need to move and do something cause I'm starting to get hungry again for some reason even though I just ate at 9:30, and it's only midnight right now. Toodles. post comment

[23 Jan 2006|01:15am] [ music | sex and the city - the chicken dance ] So 126 pounds laster and after a dramatic change in diet, I have had a shocking moment tonight. I lost weight on my stomach, but gained something else. It's kinda cool. Actually it makes me feel better. Now I can laugh at my friend/co-worker. :) Ha ha ha. Okay so much has changed with me. I'm more emotional now, more open to new things, I got a henna tattoo on my arm where it's seen with my uniform on. Ha ha ha. I got a date well kinda one on tuesday night after my meeting. He he he. This cop and I are going to work out together after his shift. He offered to drive me home on thursday night after we worked the same shift. We talked for about 30 mins infront of my place. It was cool, but he has a girlfriend. From what this guy tells me, he's bored with her and stuff. He hasn't really told me the whole thing, but whatever. So things are turning up for me. I'm getting more and more self confidence. Which is a good thing. I'm getting a new piercing, tattoo, and I get to go shopping for some langerie on monday, OH and I get my drivers license on tuesday morning. 1 comment|post comment

[15 Jan 2006|11:44pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | we are all made of stars - Moby ] blonde and 127 pounds later, I have become more open minded, and peaceful. I am so tired. Tired of the same crap. I still don't have a drivers license....Sad, I know. I'm saving up money for a new place for when I move out. My parents are getting divorced in May I think. Nice birthday present for me right? Anywho, I'm allready planning my new house, and planning on what I'm going to take in university/college. Business management or criminal justice.... After I become a full out cop, I'm planning on owning a bar or something. A I sit in the book store reading up on myself (the taurus). Lol. I realize that I have two different personallities. I have the sad/concerned/emotional side I always hide, and I show the crazy side of myself on the outside. I also realized that I think to think and reflect alot, and I'm very reliable and motivated. I have an obsession with PDAs lately. I have a really old version of the blackberry, before it came with the phone part in it. I want to get a PDA that has internet in it, like ones that connect to wi-fi stuff for free. I need a PDA instead of carrying around a stupid agenda book to my meetings all the time. I have become a hopeless romantic lately. I'm always craving a nice little date, and flowers. Amazing how it never happens to me. It's like everytime I find a guy, all they want is sex. I'm sick of sex even though I'm still pretty new to it. Anyways, I have found a way to channel out my wanting the perfect man for me, with going to the book store and reading random magazines and books. He he he. Geeky right? Anywho, I have to go now.........Toodles! post comment

Update [19 Dec 2005|01:46am] [ mood | amused ] [ music | billy joel - movin' out ] Hey everyone. Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I've been busy. I go to online school now. I'm still a apart of Krop though. :/ I weigh a whole 128 pounds now. I'm a blonde, and I got my nails done. :o Yes Trish got a mini make over. I did it, and it's my christmas present since my parents aren't buying me anything this year due to bills that are due. Surfside Police Department is begging me to work there as a Public Service Aide or a Dispatcher. I would love to take the jobs, but I can't. I still don't have a green card. My advisor at my station is getting pist off that my parent's aren't doing anything for me to get my green card. I got my promotion at the station. I'm now a lieutenant. :) I still never got my drivers license. Don't have the money to take the 4 hour drug and alcohol class or pay for the driving test. I'm still single, but these men below are after me. 1. Starbucks dude. -> hot, dark haired funny 2. Publix dude -> AKA Matt. Dark blonde, mega hot, shy and quiet 3. Plantation cop -> AKA Joe. like old enough to be my dad. really cool 4. NMB cop -> hot, hilarious, really good friend. Docs think that I have arthritis in my left hand.. Eeeep. Gotta go for blood work on the 19th of dec. Right now I have this bad cold thats going around. :( Today my throught was so swollen and sore that I only ate 3 cookies and 4 spoon fulls of cottage cheese, plus 2 cups of hot tea. Latest obsessions: Billy Joel music? my lips. making my hair look good. Cosmo magazine. happy holidays to all. I'll update soon I hope. Toodles. post comment

[22 Nov 2005|12:33pm] [ mood | accomplished ] Okay so. I'm here at the station early today. Came here around 12pm. Working the 3-11pm shift, then working out in the work out room. I started my online schooling today. :) I'm happy for that because I could have gotten kicked out of the program I'm in here at the station. So now they can't kick me out. :) Woo Hoo. Today is going awesome so far. I hope I get some action tonight at work. Unlike Friday night. I only had 2 calls. Kids stealing from the 163rd st mall, and a bakers act. I hope I get a good tasering tonight or something. *fingers crossed* But anyways, I have to go now to sign out my usual radio and get my shit ready for work. Oh BTW I broke my hand. :( post comment

[16 Nov 2005|06:58am] [ mood | bored ] [ music | it's my life - no doubt ] Well, I found out that I am now anorexic thanx to the ways I'm losing weight. I went from 138 during the hurricane to a whole 132 right now. I'm barely eating. I'm working out everyday that I can. I'm drinking lots and lots of water. Yesterday I had 2 bottles of water, 4 bites of chicken, 3 chocolates, and 1 bottle of beer. My past week hasn't been that eventful. Went to the station, got a new job, got ninja turtle candy, and made cherry sour water. 1 bottle of water 3 sour jolly rancher candies. the end. I'm bored, and I'm such a loser. I'm going back to work out. DUCE 8 comments|post comment

[07 Nov 2005|08:09pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | Si tu te vas - Paulina Rubio ] Working my but off. Got 107 hours on my monthly this month. I usually get between 20 and 30. Lost weight. :) Opened up a bank account after 2 years of living down here. Grew up and relaxed. (matured) Can't get this song out of my head.... Grrrr. lol. I'm happy with my life right now, but I'm busy as all hell. :/ It's well worth it though. Well, the promotion at the station should happen soon. I'm up for LT or major. Captins spot got taken allready, but heh. :p I'm still happy that I don't have to be a sgt anymore. :p Time for me to go study and finish cleaning my room. Oh, for all of you who haven't seen my myspace here's the URL. And yes those pic are really of me. It was a dare, and I did it. So HAH! :p www.myspace.com/my_happy_ending1330 post comment

[17 Oct 2005|12:48am] [ mood | depressed ] I also just don't get the point of life sometimes. I mean we work hard to get money, then we waste money on stupid shit. For eg my mother; Bought a new printer. We allready have 2 in our house. What do we need 3 for? Anyways to get back to my point: I don't get the point of falling in love with someone to reproduce. I mean for me it's hard to trust people out there after what my family has done to me. I'm used to being around money hungry back-stabbers who talk shit behind your back. I would never do that to anyone in my life. I feel bad enough as it is if I don't call someone back. Any who I'm used to the bad stuff in life. I just don't get why nothing will ever be good in my life. I'm told that life gives many nice things, but all it has given to me is problems, battles, depression, and pain. You can thank my family for who I am today. Most of 'em are in prison in Canada, or 6 feet under. .... Will I ever have anything good happen to me in my life? I try to move on like I'm alone in this world. (Which I am) But my parents have to drag me into their misory. Like earlier tonight, my parent's are back to their usual fighting about stupid shit. I just can't take anymore of this. I want to move out, get a car, and live my life the way I want to live it. But I can't. I don't have a green card, and I have nothing left back in Canada. I wish that none of you guys have to go through what I have to go through. Well, my past is haunting me once again. It does everyday of my life. I wish that it would go away, but it won't. 4 comments|post comment

[13 Oct 2005|05:06am] [ mood | energetic ] Yea okay so here it goes..... I started my nightly workout rutine; 100 sit-ups, 50 push-ups, and some other shit Peter taught me before I moved down here. My mouse pad on this laptop is acting fucked up again. Good thing is that the K and M keys finally got un-stuck. Yea anyways, I plan to look like my user pic when I am done working out. I'm so full of energy that I think I'll do some more sit-ups. I need to work on my six-pack more. Oh, I got a new haircut...It looks horrible, so you guys won't be able to see it because I'mma gel my hair back till it grows out again. I look like one of those little house on the prarie girls with bangs, and I hate that look. I have successfully used up something in my bathroom. Some other fucker is going to have to go under the sink while soaking wet from the shower looking for shampoo. I did this to get back at the people who leave one little square of toilet paper on the roll. Aswell as the people who use up all the shaving gel. HAH! Next time I shall leave no toilet paper, no shaving gel and no soap in my bathroom.... I will keep on doing this until you figure out that you shall replace the stuff you have used up/finished. Oh yea, So some fucker keeps on shutting off the water in my building with no warning once so ever. I have to take showers at obscure times now. The elevator is also broken in my building. I wonder whats going to happen next. I should take bets like Masha and Igor did. They had three problems. 1. The AC wouldn't work 2. No hot water 3. Elevator wouldn't work Would anyone like to take bets on the next problem in my building? Ha ha ha. Any-who... I'm hungry as fuck. I'm still on this gatorade diet till I get back to skating this Friday. Then I can eat whatever the hell I want. I usually work out right after skating to build up my endurance, so I'mma be working out 4x a week starting this Friday night. post comment

[03 Oct 2005|06:15pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | 2 fast 2 furious - the movie ] I'm supping up my car. Started saving up my money for it. First thing I'm going to buy is a under car LED kit. One that changes to 7 different colors. Then next will be a new radio/speaker system. I can't wait. I finally drove my car today by myself. No one else was in the car with me. I love how it has power. I know that it's automatic, but it's still pretty powerful. Well kiddies, I'm going for my run right now. I'm losing weight again so I can get back on the ice. I'm going back this week. :) 3 comments|post comment

[30 Sep 2005|01:11am] [ mood | dorky ] I had a dream last night I awoke with such a fright i dreamt that you were arresting me and that you wouldn't let me free i sat in the back of your car just thinking about how interesting you are I think of you when I hit 167 street hoping that i'll drive past you because it's a treat to see your face again it's like some good champagne it tastes so good like chicken cordon bleu tasting you is something i dream to pursue thats of course if you let me you probably taste like the sweetest candy the sweetest there can be and probably your skin soft like a peach tree Sorry I couldn't think of a good line there so with me you're going to have to bare i suck at writing poems at this time of the night well, i'm off to bed... umm.......rite. * This poem is to an officer from my station... so SHHHHH! 2 comments|post comment

[29 Sep 2005|07:52am] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | hit the floor- LP ] Best week ever. I'm getting my license tomorrow no matter what. I booked the appointment after my dad gets out of work. =) Going out for din din on Friday night for my mom's b-day. Friday night I'm going to QD. I'm going back to my punk self. I dyed my hair once again and look like Avril Lavigne. =) Got out my punk earrings and bracelets, punk jacket =) I'm growing out my hair longer like Avril's... It's just past my shoulder right now, but I need to straighten it. Going out to the pool to get a tan right now. Toodles. post comment

[26 Sep 2005|09:41am] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Let's have a war - Perfect Circle ] Hola. This is my weekly update Sunday I worked my ass off and I better get recognized for it I hope to get my promotion tomorrow My dad should be home tonight from New Orleans Mom's b-day is tomorrow I can finally run again cuz my knee is better I want to get back to skating Started listening to A Perfect Circle... Sounds pretty awesome Thinking about working the front desk tonight at the station Got a infection from my damn earring in my left ear. post comment

[23 Sep 2005|08:13pm] [ mood | angry ] [ music | Down with the sickness - Disturbed ] Well thanx to my immigration lawyer I can't get a green card.... He doesn't want my dad to claim me as his daughter for some reason, and he wants to wait till May so I can get a work visa......FUCK THAT! I'm marrying an american to get my green card faster. DUCE! 3 comments|post comment

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